Are you always yourself? I'm not.
I'm a real silly goose, and when I know you and feel comfortable around you I will be myself until we've all laughed a lot. If I don't know people very well, though, I'm actually quiet. Can you believe it?
I am so blessed to have many warm, wonderful friends. There are some though with whom I feel more comfortable and am more myself.
The other day I walked by a small group of people who I consider my friends or close acquaintances, but I didn't stop. I felt like I'd be butting in. In made me sad, because I felt excluded. It was silly, really, because I could certainly have stopped and no one would have said, "What do you think you're doing?", but I just kept walking self-consciously away. I wanted to stop but I didn't know how to jump into the conversation.
If these had been my close friends I would have stopped. If it had been Jennifer, Karen, Andee, or Diane (to name a few), I would probably have stopped and assumed the Karate Kid crane position. "Hello," I'd have said with a straight face, and everyone would have said, "Amy!" Andee would have said, "We're going to have SO MUCH FUN!" and we would.
I'm not always myself. I can really rein it in if I don't feel completely comfortable.
What's my point? I don't really know. I'm just wondering if you think you are always yourself. What do you think?
We're a happy little family of 5 who have been blessed. God has given us each other, our family and friends, and most importantly, with His only son Jesus who died for us. Jesus was adopted by Joseph, don't ya' know!
5 comments:
I always try to be myself... which means I often embarass others! But it breaks the ice and I'm known as a goofball. It's funny though - one of my IRL friends recently let loose with me and she's a crack-up! I had no idea after 2 years of friendship...
I'm like you...quiet until you get to know me really well, then I can totally just let go and be silly or make funny wisecracks. So, I totally get your post!
I definitely think you're funny, Sarah, you have a sparkle in your eye. (I've never seen Allison's eyes.)
I'm not always myself either. I can definitely jump into anyone's conversation, but I don't let myself be vulnerable with other people until I really feel like I can trust them with "me."
By the way, Hi, and I miss talking with you. Life is crazy with 2 little ones, isn't it?!
Amy
never met you IRL but I feel like I pratically know you:0)
I hated the first day of school every year for this reason. I hated trying to fit in. Now adays, i just don't want to feel like a silly goose because I hate chit chat and love meaningful conversations. I do feel out of place most of the time. I greet at church ( pre Robbie) and often looked at people chatting it up and thought what are they possibly talking about? I just don't have that much to say except to my close friends.
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