Are you always yourself? I'm not.
I'm a real silly goose, and when I know you and feel comfortable around you I will be myself until we've all laughed a lot. If I don't know people very well, though, I'm actually quiet. Can you believe it?
I am so blessed to have many warm, wonderful friends. There are some though with whom I feel more comfortable and am more myself.
The other day I walked by a small group of people who I consider my friends or close acquaintances, but I didn't stop. I felt like I'd be butting in. In made me sad, because I felt excluded. It was silly, really, because I could certainly have stopped and no one would have said, "What do you think you're doing?", but I just kept walking self-consciously away. I wanted to stop but I didn't know how to jump into the conversation.
If these had been my close friends I would have stopped. If it had been Jennifer, Karen, Andee, or Diane (to name a few), I would probably have stopped and assumed the Karate Kid crane position. "Hello," I'd have said with a straight face, and everyone would have said, "Amy!" Andee would have said, "We're going to have SO MUCH FUN!" and we would.
I'm not always myself. I can really rein it in if I don't feel completely comfortable.
What's my point? I don't really know. I'm just wondering if you think you are always yourself. What do you think?