I'm not healed, dog gonnit (is that blasphemy? sorry).
I am angry that my body is broken. I hate not being able to do something I want to do! I don't even really think this is about not achieving/sustaining pregnancy, but about feeling like I am not good enough to do something I want to do. This does not happen to me very often, and it is kicking my butt!
So, I am ANGRY today!
If you think I'm whining, then TOO BAD. Get over it. Go somewhere else.
(An uncharacteristic rant from my camp.)
I'm angry, God! Lord, turn this anger into something beautiful. You've done it before, Lord. I promise I'll thank you later, but right now I pray that you just know my heart.