This is a really weird place to be. When we first thought about waiting, we both had this feeling that we would be one of those couples who don't wait very long. Don't get me wrong, it has been less than 2 months and I don't consider that to be "very long," but sometimes couples are matched within days of having their profile "in the book!" Yes, yes, I know, we probably wouldn't want that because we wouldn't have time to get ready, and this, and that, but, after over 3 years of wanting, wanting, we're ready. But we're not really! Who could be?
So, now I've settled into the idea that we won't be matched for awhile. That's okay. God knows exactly who our baby will be, and s/he may or may not be conceived. I can't pray that we will meet our baby "soon" because God's will is not likely timing but content. For example, God's will is not for us to have A baby in August, but to have our Baby who happens to be born in, say, December. We are told to wait for God's timing because that is where we get impatient. No one I know says, "I don't want God's will." Most do. However, I personally seldom really mean, "I want God's will" but "I want God's will NOW." Errrrrt - Nope. Homey don't play dat.
Alas, we wait, twiddling our thumbs. Every time I get discouraged, I think about going to the movies whenever I want (and then go there), sleeping through the night every night, and spending one-on-one time with my dear husband. I get my baby fix and then come home to do whatever I want yet again. Yes, it is a selfish life, but I am enjoying myself.
I have had three plus years to fantasize about what it will be like to be a parent. I think I have a realistic picture of what it will be like, but I know that the experience of it will be another thing entirely. Sigh - I'll let you know what I think when that finally happens.